achuchung

wabeh..

kahapon,nagrecollexion kame..

tpos pinasulat samen sa isang pirasong papel ang isang tao o bagay na pinakamahalaga sayo..

sinabi samen na kung handa kang ibigay kay God ung isinulat mo dun para mag-grow ka,punitin mo ang papel at ilagay sa box..

sinulat ko dun: "mom"..

i love her so much na ginive-up ko ung freedom ko just for her..

nagdalawang isip akong punitin un..

nung lahat ng kaklase ko nailagay na nila ung paper nila,i decided to join them nlang. xempre diba alangan nmng ikaw lang mag-isa dun na hndi nglagay ng papel..

then we are asked to raise our hand kung handa ka bang ibigay ung taong un..

i cried.

hindi ko kaya.so i decided not to raise my hand.

nagmisa kame. inoffer ung box with torn papers. at natapos ang reco.

nagmoa pa kame,nagtimezone..

at night while i was asleep,napanaginipan ko ung parents ko.

my mom died due to a car accident..

naghirap kame..

and later on,my dad died with the same tragic accident..

nagising ako.i cried.hindi ko kayang mawala sila.

for all this time,nagdoubt ako kay God.hindi ako nagconfess, at kahit anong sabihin nung speaker,my mind still wont let God to control me.

and now..i dont know what to do. ayoko silang mawala.i regret putting those pieces of paper in the box. i hate myself for coming to that recollection. i want to let Him in, but the door is still closed…