achuchung

if you’re reading this, please be aware that i am not a stalker by any chance .

god! what was i thinkin?? to fall madly in love with a guy i cant reach?? god! i mean, what the heck got into my effin mind and chose that kind of super human being?? gawd..why him?? why did u let me fall in love with a CELEBRITY??

and now, im effin broken, i wanna cry but it wont come out, i wanna kill myself but the knife is 100 effin years old..gawd..

gawd..why?? he is 10 feet tall,im only 5 and 7 inches..i cant reach him..and no matter what i do, it just gives me pain and suffering.. i love him,but he doesnt know me..he doesnt even give a shit about me.if im my real self ryt now, i shudve scolded my self like "why him u effin bitch?!cant you tell the difference between a hot-hot-hottie and a so-so-ugly??oh please stop whining you stupid slut!" gawd.. if only i can manipulate this ability called LOVE, i shudve been happy ryt now.. but that damn effin guy up there said im only human..dammit!!why cant he just give me someone whos in my line,someone that i know and knows me too, someone whos interested in commoners like me..?why??why??

gawd…my tears really wanna burst out ryt now but that stupid vein keep closing it in..its better if i’ll just explode,forget about him,and continue with my damn old effin life..i wish it was that simple..

FUCK U U EFFIN SON OF A BITCH!! FUCK U! FUCK UR CUTE LITTLE EYES, AND THAT SWEET DIMPLED SMILE OF URS!FUCK U!! I WILL NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE!I SWEAR TO GOD!HOPE TO DIE! (or just kill me now so all the swearing can come true..)

note: theres a 99.99% that he is not reading or will read this..so why bother ryt?dammit.damn him.