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share ko lang story ko dis day. i sold my old phone to a friend for a coupla grand.i got so happy coz i thought i can buy my parents somthin to remmber from me.i went to the mall this afternoon,hopin to find somethin nice.while i was in the jeepney(im the only passenger),two guys made "para".the guy with the white shirt sat beside me.so we got to the mall…..

i instantly headed to a fastfood chain coz im starving.when i was about to pay my bill,i realized my purse wasnt there.i panicked.i went to the jeepney station.i saw barkers and some drivers gathered on the same jeepney i rode.there it was.the missing purse i was looking for…but….

it was empty.the coupla grand i was hopin to make me happy did the opposite.the driver said maybe the guy with the white shirt took it.the color on my face escaped.i wanted to cry in that spot but thought itll be embarassing…so….

i went directly to the seaside where the ocean breeze is cool and the sky is clear.i sat on a bench away from the crowd.there,i poured out all the tears that was so near to fall at the jeepney station.i cried hard but on silent mode.its the first time it happened to me.i thought,"why me?for the billions of people in the world,why me?"…then….

i realized there was no hope but to walk back to my school where i can find some safety..while i was walking,i said to myself that i cant smile for the rest of the day after what happened.i saw some pma students jogging around the block.i thought,if they were only there that guy couldve spared me.i continued to walk.then,the students were behind me,i didnt notice."bini-bini,bini-bini,super-ganda,super-ganda.."they were chanting as they passed me by.i smiled.i ate what i just said.it was nice for them to do that,especially when im so down,they dont even know it..but the mishap doesnt end there..

so i managed to borrow some money from a friend.while i was riding a jeepney(again) to head back home,the driver and the police officer got into some quarrel.we got stucked up a coupla miles away from my house.i decided to walk.i thought,"what the heck.i walked a lot of miles more than this already,so why not go?"i walked.finally here i am.sored feet,haggard-looking face,and a hungry stomach.what a day..

if you’re reading this, please be aware that i am not a stalker by any chance .

god! what was i thinkin?? to fall madly in love with a guy i cant reach?? god! i mean, what the heck got into my effin mind and chose that kind of super human being?? gawd..why him?? why did u let me fall in love with a CELEBRITY??

and now, im effin broken, i wanna cry but it wont come out, i wanna kill myself but the knife is 100 effin years old..gawd..

gawd..why?? he is 10 feet tall,im only 5 and 7 inches..i cant reach him..and no matter what i do, it just gives me pain and suffering.. i love him,but he doesnt know me..he doesnt even give a shit about me.if im my real self ryt now, i shudve scolded my self like "why him u effin bitch?!cant you tell the difference between a hot-hot-hottie and a so-so-ugly??oh please stop whining you stupid slut!" gawd.. if only i can manipulate this ability called LOVE, i shudve been happy ryt now.. but that damn effin guy up there said im only human..dammit!!why cant he just give me someone whos in my line,someone that i know and knows me too, someone whos interested in commoners like me..?why??why??

gawd…my tears really wanna burst out ryt now but that stupid vein keep closing it in..its better if i’ll just explode,forget about him,and continue with my damn old effin life..i wish it was that simple..

FUCK U U EFFIN SON OF A BITCH!! FUCK U! FUCK UR CUTE LITTLE EYES, AND THAT SWEET DIMPLED SMILE OF URS!FUCK U!! I WILL NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE!I SWEAR TO GOD!HOPE TO DIE! (or just kill me now so all the swearing can come true..)

note: theres a 99.99% that he is not reading or will read this..so why bother ryt?dammit.damn him.