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“KABATAAN” - An Essay About Manila And Rural Teens

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 8:07 am on Monday, December 1, 2008  Tagged , , , , , , , ,

after living in Cavite (which is not part of the metro) for about 2 yrs, i noticed a lot of differences and similarities of the teenagers in metro manila and the rural areas (specifically Misamis Occidental where i grew up).

first would be the clothing. manila teens love to explore fashion, always get into trend and sometimes may develop their own style. rural teens are into fashion too but they have a hard time finding the right place to buy clothes and accessories coz the malls are not as developed. rural teens would find a way to be on trend, some ways would be that they’d make thier own accessories by recycling magazines or stones and they’d make “patahi” on the local sewer. manila teens are more of the shopping freak. they know where the bargains and tiangge are displayed. they’d search the whole metro or even the suburbs to explore malls. i was even kinda hooked with the latter too. lol.

second, the way of life. manila teens love to drink coffee, or should i say, FLAUNT coffee. they like to display to everyone that they’re drinking a cup of coffee for a hundred and fifty bucks and may sometimes bring their posh laptops with them. rural teens are, well, naive about it just yet. they don’t have coffee houses that has wi-fi in it so they’re more on juices and soft ice cream at the local grocery. manila teens also love expensive slippers. gawd, how they LUV to display their feet with flip flops that has the trademark of HAVAIANAS. for rural teens, they are contented with cheap slippers, just pretty enough to be worn on beaches. manila teens are at pace with the new books and movies that are out. if a movie is popular, they need - as in NEED - to watch it for them to be in touch when their friends talk about it. they don’t like to be left out. rural teens would have had to be like that if the local movie house is up-to-date and that they have equipped bookstores,sadly they don’t.

third and last, the thinking and perceptions. manila teens would love to go out and hang out with friends because they feel much happier with them. the same goes with the rural teens. manila teens sneak out late at night just to go to night clubs or parties. rural teens sneak out in the middle of the day to go to a friend’s house and sometimes may stay there for the night. rural teens don’t have much happenings at night so they’re contented in long chats and gossips about the exciting news in town which is easy to grasp coz almost all the people knew each other. manila teens think that they need to be independent, rural teens does too. manila teens think that rural teens are so naive and are boring. rural teens think that manila teens are too liberated and all of them are not virgins anymore.

as for me, all teens are really the same, its just because of the place where they were brought up that mattered. a friend told me once that teens in the province are somehow immature than teens on the city because manila teens wants to be independent as soon as they can, but actually rural teens are also like that.  he said that rural teens are more composed and doesn’t have the ’sungay’ that manila teens have but gawd, if he only knew what we were when i was still in the province, he should have thought otherwise.

teens are all the same, with one heart and one mind. and i agree that teens are the hope of the country as what a hero imparted. LONG LIVE THE TEENS!

Does God Exist?

Filed under: Religion — gembabe at 2:12 am on Sunday, August 31, 2008

wabeh..

kahapon,nagrecollexion kame..

tpos pinasulat samen sa isang pirasong papel ang isang tao o bagay na pinakamahalaga sayo..

sinabi samen na kung handa kang ibigay kay God ung isinulat mo dun para mag-grow ka,punitin mo ang papel at ilagay sa box..

sinulat ko dun: "mom"..

i love her so much na ginive-up ko ung freedom ko just for her..

nagdalawang isip akong punitin un..

nung lahat ng kaklase ko nailagay na nila ung paper nila,i decided to join them nlang. xempre diba alangan nmng ikaw lang mag-isa dun na hndi nglagay ng papel..

then we are asked to raise our hand kung handa ka bang ibigay ung taong un..

i cried.

hindi ko kaya.so i decided not to raise my hand.

nagmisa kame. inoffer ung box with torn papers. at natapos ang reco.

nagmoa pa kame,nagtimezone..

at night while i was asleep,napanaginipan ko ung parents ko.

my mom died due to a car accident..

naghirap kame..

and later on,my dad died with the same tragic accident..

nagising ako.i cried.hindi ko kayang mawala sila.

for all this time,nagdoubt ako kay God.hindi ako nagconfess, at kahit anong sabihin nung speaker,my mind still wont let God to control me.

and now..i dont know what to do. ayoko silang mawala.i regret putting those pieces of paper in the box. i hate myself for coming to that recollection. i want to let Him in, but the door is still closed…

exciting-turned-ugly day.

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 5:12 am on Thursday, June 26, 2008

share ko lang story ko dis day. i sold my old phone to a friend for a coupla grand.i got so happy coz i thought i can buy my parents somthin to remmber from me.i went to the mall this afternoon,hopin to find somethin nice.while i was in the jeepney(im the only passenger),two guys made "para".the guy with the white shirt sat beside me.so we got to the mall…..

i instantly headed to a fastfood chain coz im starving.when i was about to pay my bill,i realized my purse wasnt there.i panicked.i went to the jeepney station.i saw barkers and some drivers gathered on the same jeepney i rode.there it was.the missing purse i was looking for…but….

it was empty.the coupla grand i was hopin to make me happy did the opposite.the driver said maybe the guy with the white shirt took it.the color on my face escaped.i wanted to cry in that spot but thought itll be embarassing…so….

i went directly to the seaside where the ocean breeze is cool and the sky is clear.i sat on a bench away from the crowd.there,i poured out all the tears that was so near to fall at the jeepney station.i cried hard but on silent mode.its the first time it happened to me.i thought,"why me?for the billions of people in the world,why me?"…then….

i realized there was no hope but to walk back to my school where i can find some safety..while i was walking,i said to myself that i cant smile for the rest of the day after what happened.i saw some pma students jogging around the block.i thought,if they were only there that guy couldve spared me.i continued to walk.then,the students were behind me,i didnt notice."bini-bini,bini-bini,super-ganda,super-ganda.."they were chanting as they passed me by.i smiled.i ate what i just said.it was nice for them to do that,especially when im so down,they dont even know it..but the mishap doesnt end there..

so i managed to borrow some money from a friend.while i was riding a jeepney(again) to head back home,the driver and the police officer got into some quarrel.we got stucked up a coupla miles away from my house.i decided to walk.i thought,"what the heck.i walked a lot of miles more than this already,so why not go?"i walked.finally here i am.sored feet,haggard-looking face,and a hungry stomach.what a day..

i love u,u effin, heartbreakin, son of btch!!

Filed under: Weblogs — gembabe at 7:17 am on Sunday, June 8, 2008

if you’re reading this, please be aware that i am not a stalker by any chance .

god! what was i thinkin?? to fall madly in love with a guy i cant reach?? god! i mean, what the heck got into my effin mind and chose that kind of super human being?? gawd..why him?? why did u let me fall in love with a CELEBRITY??

and now, im effin broken, i wanna cry but it wont come out, i wanna kill myself but the knife is 100 effin years old..gawd..

gawd..why?? he is 10 feet tall,im only 5 and 7 inches..i cant reach him..and no matter what i do, it just gives me pain and suffering.. i love him,but he doesnt know me..he doesnt even give a shit about me.if im my real self ryt now, i shudve scolded my self like "why him u effin bitch?!cant you tell the difference between a hot-hot-hottie and a so-so-ugly??oh please stop whining you stupid slut!" gawd.. if only i can manipulate this ability called LOVE, i shudve been happy ryt now.. but that damn effin guy up there said im only human..dammit!!why cant he just give me someone whos in my line,someone that i know and knows me too, someone whos interested in commoners like me..?why??why??

gawd…my tears really wanna burst out ryt now but that stupid vein keep closing it in..its better if i’ll just explode,forget about him,and continue with my damn old effin life..i wish it was that simple..

FUCK U U EFFIN SON OF A BITCH!! FUCK U! FUCK UR CUTE LITTLE EYES, AND THAT SWEET DIMPLED SMILE OF URS!FUCK U!! I WILL NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE!I SWEAR TO GOD!HOPE TO DIE! (or just kill me now so all the swearing can come true..)

note: theres a 99.99% that he is not reading or will read this..so why bother ryt?dammit.damn him.

off the ground..=(

Filed under: Weblogs — gembabe at 1:27 am on Saturday, April 5, 2008

when you’re famous, it doesn’t mean you can brag or be obnoxious about it. i always get pissed when someone says he’s like this or like that. so what? not everybody adores you. maybe you’re good-looking, rich or whatever but you can’t please everybody so get that feet back on the ground!

-gem-

hhhmm..its back to normal..

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 12:08 am on Monday, August 13, 2007

thank god..blog here is normal.again..

asshole

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 7:56 pm on Thursday, August 9, 2007

i hate this blog..why doesnt it show in my profile???

waaahhh!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 3:30 am on Thursday, August 2, 2007

wwwaaaahhhh…!!!!!

be careful wid guys..

Filed under: Uncategorized — gembabe at 6:57 am on Wednesday, August 1, 2007

its very hard to find the right guy..

those u think hu is ryt,theyre the last thing ull

ever want…

some are fine,some hav sense of humor..

but most of them are bullshits and freaks..

u dnt know whats goin on in their heads.

id like to point out to those guys whos reading this

that this is my blog..i can say whatever i want.

if i stepped on u,then leave a comment..

now,back to the topic…

guys say something like "im always thinking of u" or

"have you eaten your breakfast?im asking coz im worried with your health.."

smooth isnt it?

but they’re all liars.

they say dat to impress us..not that they really do care..

maybe some guys do..1 out of 10..

they’ll gonna court you not because they like your sense of humor or coz ur smart, or maybe just because ur kind to other people..

they’ll court you because you are nicely dressed,ur pretty,or popular..they want a gurl who’ll take their prides up,up and away..

they’re such assholes..

mga lalakeng tanga!

Filed under: Weblogs — gembabe at 7:17 am on Tuesday, July 31, 2007

mga lalake

lahat tanga

walng ginawa

kundi mambola ng babae

pucha sila

hndi nila alam

na nasasaktan na kame!!

o kayay nagbubulagan lamang

ang mga pesteng lalakeng un?

hay ewan

basta ako

hate ko sila

na love!

cant live with them

cant live without them!